Seperation of thought and action

So I got to thinking about this life I am living and started to concider a few things and just reflect on some others.

1) what am I willing to give up in order to pursue this goal, and altho I wont give up allot of things there are things I am realizing that I can give up.

2) what will I have to do to get there, yet again the answer is allot I am gonna start pouring everything and more into this because I have the taste and I know I want more than just a taste.

3) when will it start to show, well i supose with anything worth having it will take time and effort and I know I have the heart for it to hold on till I reach what i'm going for.

and as far as what I have thought about other than that.

1) I am lonely but you know what I am not nearly as lonely as I have tricked myself into beliving hell I know people all over the city and allot of them have helped me grow so much already.

2) this quick paced life leaves no time for you if your not on that train it will pass you buy without a second thought and I am not about to miss this one.

3) as far a being single again goes it's never easy and the weird slew of ex's getting incontact with me has forced me to review all of my relationships and I think it's time for me to shy away from that relm for a long long time see the main thing i saw that was similar to all my longer relationships was the way they ended...it was usually my call in one aspect or another and it was because I was frustraited with my life because I knew I wassent doing what I wanted to be doing and the first place I put that stress was realationships...so ya gonna shy away from that whole bit untill I am more in place with this acting gig.

Heading back to Kamloops soon so that will be emotional because it will be one of the last times I am there for a wile and there are lots of friendly faces that I just wont see anymore but the fact that I know they are there gives me allot of hope and strenght

I really look forward to where this will take me.